Both Big Daddy AND Gray were very nice horses. Gray loved to have a spot under his chin scratched, and Big Daddy, LOVED to walk BIG STEPS. In his stall space and when Pony was on him, Trouble seemed VERY confident. His mane was positively amazing. I did get to run my fingers through his mane. I had never gotten that close to a curly before I went to MO. His tail looked nice also, nice and full.
I do want people to know I do NOT Like how I look in the pics from the clinic. Today I got some pics put on disk of how I looked after my surgery BEFORE I began Chemo and Radiation. I like how I looked back then a lot better. But, my body is returning to its "normal self". I almost changed my mind about attending when I found out I would only have 2 weeks to recharge my body after radiation rather than the anticipated 4 weeks. I was really LOW On physical energy, but zooming inside because of the horses, and the other people in the clinic (the participants) were wonderful Horse people, and then of course, Pony is definitely a Horse person. I am glad I went. Inside I'm still "zooming", in my soul (the place where I keep things important to me).
I have met Pony several times at events, including a mounted course I audited a lifetime ago. I would watch him and take notes and try really hard to follow what he demonstrated. I also have all the books and the video and the DVD's, and I watch them often (many times with a student who is interested in better ways to be with their horse). But I'm a long time die hard perfectionist. I had to give that up to get the most out of what was happening.
The first time I entered the round pen on the first day, I could not focus at all. I realized I did not even really know WHERE MO was, and I didn't know the other people, and... well a hundred excuses. But by the time I went back in the second time, I focused on the horse, its movement, well, I guess everyone from the clinic would say I focused on the horse's EYES the first couple of days. (not the right thing to be focusing on, unless I wanted the horse to come to me). But I was focusing. Eventually I learned to look at the hooves or shoulder or hip or neck (sometimes I cheated and watched the ears especially when out in the field).
As I began to learn from watching others, and especially from watching Pony, I guess I saw the focus changing from "showing what I already knew" to "showing that I was learning". I also remember Pony commenting at one point that I was doing something better, or the right way. I remember saying "Well, you said to do it this way". That's when I knew I was in learning mode, and I felt a lot better.
We did some amazing "energy and connection" work with some horses in a field. The horses had not been handled much, and they had not been handled in a way that had them really trusting humans. There was a chestnut that had beautiful LONG mane that was full of burrs and tangled. I really wanted to physically "touch" her. She allowed me to get close to her, and would turn her head towards me as I turned away, but she would not step towards me. IF I had been there longer, I probably would have continued to work on my own "presence" til she "accepted" me. There was another horse in that group that was amazing. I learned about a different piece of equipment that seemed to work really well. And that horse seemed to fall "in love" with one of the clinic participants ( good chuckles).
Energy was the biggest learning for me. I personally learned that the "Less energy I physically have, the more energy I seemed to need". Visually, this translates to the scene: I'm super exhausted ( fatigue from months of treatment and my body generally being WAY out of shape on the 3rd and final day). Instead of standing near the center of the round pen, I walk around the round pen WITH the horse, while asking the horse to move foward, stop , and back up. When I can't or don't focus, I'm going to get REAL TIRED.
And as I already shared, I am really REALLY rethinking what I was told about the energy I have that comes from emotions is not a good energy to be using with horses. That was shared with me also during the clinic. I have heard from others about my tendency to try and act from my emotions to generate energy , including music teachers, riding instructors, and fellow crisis workers (like in a hospital setting during a code blue).
One of the coolest moments for me was when another long maned bay in an adjoining field suddenly came up very lame. I was entering the round pen for my turn with Comet (such a good horse

). In the same instant, almost everyone pointed at the horse that was favoring a forleg. (It was like, everyone there cared about that horse ). And Pony, walked over and checked out the horse. It was just wonderful to be in a group of people who CARED. I guess I had forgotten how important and amazing that is.
Well, I also fell in love with the area. I don't know if it was because of the horses, or because of the physical activity which I had not had much of in MONTHS (about 6 months of just laying and letting my body take it easy), but I was able to sleep at night without taking some of the medication I had been taking for a long time. The fireflies were in place at sunset ( I love watching their lights). I "met" many horses. The short time I spent talking with nadanada, I learned a lot about "food". That new information has sparked my interest in food to give me energy (Other than sugar). So, learning happened all over the place.
I bought some things also.
- 3 Pony boy halters WITH black leads, a small, a medium, and a large (thinking horsemanship program with different size horses happening soon here)
- a belt to hold up my jeans that grew even as I walked in them (maybe I was getting smaller - I had doctor appts today and I lost 10 lbs since june 9th- I sure I lost those lbs there somewhere near or IN that round pen !!! )
-lots of water!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- and a small horse magnet with horses with beautiful manes on them and the saying on the magnet???
EAT YOUR VEGGIES... figured that would help get the 5 servings of veggies in a day if it was on my fridge.
Sorry this was so long, but well, it was for THREE days!!!!!!!!
Nancy